damn i saw the loveof my life saturday and hes georgeous and not at all how i remember him....hes not the person i feel in love with or remeber..and he was all i had...my grams is talking about me behind my back..and here i though of all the peopl in the world she would be there i could depend on her and come to find out shes using me,,,, and she hurt me....but it don't seem to bother her......my moms and i are just playing nice...but i still hurt from when  she put me in the shelter and back stabbed a thousand times...i feel fat and am fat...i hate everythinig it ..........i just wanna cry, die,, and endmy suffering

tommrow is court and im stressed the hell out and i hate the god damn world.......i WOn't eat for shit.......

damn yeaterday..suxed....but to day i feel better...even though i'm going into foster care my world is completely shocked....but i'm not eating that much since the food sucks at the shelter   thank god......so yeah ....i'll hopefully lose 10 pounds by the end of the week since i'm gonna fast till then...i'm still playing hard like in foootball...or whatever were doing ...and i love the heat since it makes me sweat more....i love to wear layers in the heat....yup..but  i always shower afterword of course....!!AAAGGGHH!!...F.T.W

i love it 
i hate food